I'm just too worn out eh?
we had a great prayer meeting today
for me, it was a breakthrough, the unity of hearts after months
felt rather guilty
felt very condemned
felt as if I have not done enough
felt as if i'm not doing what i suppose to do
i realized.i've been living under world's perspective these few weeks
and when it came to God and me just now
i just felt that
i'm not worthy to be in that place
i'm not worthy, just not worthy
to stand before Him and say:Lord, touch their hearts!
busy+busy-ness+stress+school projects+expectations
i couldn't help but to try to fulfill everything
to do everything i can
but, its too much eh?
doing too much, that I forgot the basic and the purpose of "me, being here, on earth"
and how ridiculous of me,how can I do that?
am just speechless, my responsibility isn't it?
i let disappointments and discouragements and emotions dwell in me
i know i've to move on, but somehow, i can't pull myself away from it
i've lost it, and i want it back.
i've no idea how am i sustaining through this one year
i really have no idea
family expectations, studies, school, friends, YFers, the people around?
please Lord, how?
Faith.I need You.
