Finally, another break!
really hope that i get sufficient rest
of all the projects
of all the responsibility to do
of all the particular things to take care of
of all the plans to be done
i can't stop but thinking, when will this end?
when can i have a REAL break, since last year?
ah, sigh, it is getting tougher and tougher isn't it?
the weight, heavy.
really heavy
and i thought after last week, i could have rest for at least a moment
there goes something, responsibility of mine
and i just couldn't hold back the frustration
broke down:"Father, why?"
my fault, weaknesses, keep accepting what people give
don't dare to get help
in the end the burden becomes over for one person
ah, priorities to set on
"be wise in your decision"
discern, the more important ones
after all, i'm really numb-ed
by all the tiredness and busy-ness and stress
that people will not understand
you think it is easy to lead?
it is not for me
at the edge of all expectations
i not only have to grow and rise
but i need to cope with other responsibilities
cope with expectations
with things
ah, it is like, can't afford to do the little things
talking to people
having closer relationship with each other
cannot stop but feel a little hurt
little ache in heart:"how should it be done?"
i'm always near, so near to the breaking point
so near
tired everyday?
i have just no idea why i keep dozing off in class!
seriously, i feel very frustrated
taking back the H2Os
always, the time spent at night ended very briefly
for a long time
have not been joyful, delighted
and for once
i just hope that moment
where i can rest in His arms and say
"You made my day"
