What a week, what a moment
Realized lots of imperfection within
Though knowing human can't be perfect
Last minute work suddenly made me superfearful of what is to come
Seriously, I have no idea why I got myself into bio
Maybe, following the flow of circumstances becomes my reason
Regrets comes and goes often-ly
Especially those times when I just can't force myself to love what I study
What comes?
Taking things too shallow-ly and not serious
Taking things for granted
His sufficient Grace becomes my excuse instead of my motivation
Now it is a whole new phase
My perspective and thoughts have changed compared to like two years ago
Starting to think 'seriously' about futures
Even, struggling to make a difference
in people's life at least before leaving hometown
In the past, these things do not seem so important with the thinking of 'i can do it next time'
But then
these fears and futures become so overwhelming recently
I can't stop but to wonder where will I go from here
His Hope. not that revealing, not that obvious?
I do not want to miss the stop where His call matches His gift.
